Y’all. This is the most Dutch meal that’s ever been served to me lmao.

Y’all. This is the most Dutch meal that’s ever been served to me lmao.

@2 hours ago with 4 notes
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Karl Hennemann (German, 1884–1972), Pines in Backlight, 1919–21. Oil on canvas, 60.5 x 80.5 cm.

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Karl Hennemann (German, 1884–1972), Pines in Backlight, 1919–21. Oil on canvas, 60.5 x 80.5 cm.

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@3 hours ago with 223 notes

"The snake which cannot cast its skin has to die. As well the minds which are prevented from changing their opinions; they cease to be minds."

Friedrich Nietzsche (via henretta84)

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@4 hours ago with 357 notes
#YAS favorite 
Uh okay. It’s probably fine, they probably just want me to believe it’s not okay. I’m not gonna worry about it then.

Uh okay. It’s probably fine, they probably just want me to believe it’s not okay. I’m not gonna worry about it then.

@5 hours ago with 1 note
#host family #personal 

"He who jumps into the void owes no explanation to those who stand and watch."

Jean Luc Godard (via augustuszeus)

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@8 hours ago with 22475 notes
#quote #favorite 

"What is in all this beauty for me when every minute, every second I am obliged, forced to know that even this tiny gnat, buzzing near me in the sunlight now, is taking part in all this banquet and chorus, knows its place in it, loves it, and is happy, and I alone am an outcast."

Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Idiot (via whyallcaps)

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@3 hours ago with 87 notes
#Dostoyevsky #the idiot #quote 

"I only ask one thing, I ask for the right to hope, to suffer as I do now, but if I can’t even do that, tell me to disappear and I will disappear. You won’t see me again if my presence makes you unhappy."

Leo Tolstoy, Anna Karenina (via whyallcaps)

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@4 hours ago with 123 notes
#Tolstoy #annna karenina #quote 
I think they want me to still feel threatened because I’m not under contract anymore and they still have things they want me to do. They want to make me feel like they still have a role in my stay here. 

They want me to return the keys to the family and unregister at the town hall. The thing is if I don’t it’ll cost the family 400€ for me not unregistering and then they’d have to change all of the locks if I don’t return the key (this happened with the last au pair that ran away.)

They aren’t doing anything to get the 84€ the family owes me for my Dutch books. 

They know at this point they’re basically asking for favors since I’m not employed by them anymore. I really don’t know if I’m going to bother.

I think they want me to still feel threatened because I’m not under contract anymore and they still have things they want me to do. They want to make me feel like they still have a role in my stay here.

They want me to return the keys to the family and unregister at the town hall. The thing is if I don’t it’ll cost the family 400€ for me not unregistering and then they’d have to change all of the locks if I don’t return the key (this happened with the last au pair that ran away.)

They aren’t doing anything to get the 84€ the family owes me for my Dutch books.

They know at this point they’re basically asking for favors since I’m not employed by them anymore. I really don’t know if I’m going to bother.

@4 hours ago with 1 note
#host family #personal 

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@6 hours ago with 2242 notes

Ran to Utrecht and went into my friends house. They gave me the key but they went away. The cleaning lady was there and was really startled at having a panicked American girl come in through the shed.

She didn’t speak English so she told me in Dutch their vacuum cleaner is broken, could I please let them know? (Bahahaha, yes I can.)

The agent just asked me accusingly why I bought my ticket in October 3rd and how I knew I’d be leaving in November by October 3rd. Yes, I didn’t tell anyone because I was afraid of what would happen to me, for the 1,000th time. They want me to go meet my host family in person and give them their keys back.

Yes, they want me to go meet in person the family I told them has been abusing me for two months. That really makes it clear how much they want to help me. They won’t give me a straight answer about if it’s okay if I leave in November or not. They won’t answer any simple questions but still demand the info they want from me while being vague as possible.

Maybe I should just stop talking to them at all? I have about three weeks left. One of the agents slipped that my residence permit has been withdrawn so I’m already on my travel visa (“Really? So it’s okay?”) Then she quickly backtracked and told me she had to ask and make sure. It’s like it’s their policy to tell me as little as possible. Tom figures that an application for change in status takes about two weeks to go in effect and then I have a week leftover. If the IND sees I have a ticket out maybe they won’t be assholes about it.

I literally gave them specific instances of abuse and they ignored them outright, but when they see I bought my ticket October 3rd, then there’s a problem? Maybe I should refuse to unregister at the townhall and return the keys until they start being more reasonable.

@8 hours ago with 2 notes
#buhhhhh #host family #host family aftermath #personal